Love, God, and Being Clueless

Talk about clueless!

That’s how I felt in RCIA class last night. I’ve mentioned before that I have a hard time understanding the Bible because I read it like a story. LITERALLY. Last night that was never more obvious, and quite embarrassing. I didn’t want to talk or answer questions after a while because I was/am that out of the proverbial loop when it comes to the Bible.

Speaking of the Bible, Father Joe gave us a new Bible that we will use for our studies (thank goodness because I didn’t want to mark up the beautiful Bible that I bought).

The assignment we were given the class prior had to do with the Church. As a community, why we need it, what do we see when we think about the Church, etc.

I struggled with this assignment for the two weeks I had to complete it. I don’t see the church as a “building” per se. I DO see it as a “place” where we gather together to celebrate Christ and that can be just about anywhere.

For where two or three have gathered
together in My name, I am there in their midst.

Matthew 18:20

That is where my understanding ended and some enlightenment was ushered upon me.

While my answer wasn’t wrong, my understanding of the Church is a little off by A LOT.

From what I took out of our class was that the Church IS God. *mind blown* And God is the Holy Trinity *blank stare*. Jesus came to draw us into the “community love” of the Trinity. Jesus lived, died, and rose to bring all people into one family (John 10:16-18).

Father Joe saw my struggle (I wear my everything on my face lol it’s a dead giveaway) so he asked me what I thought the Holy Spirit was *head explodes*. I couldn’t even answer because based on my thoughts of what Church was I was clearly WRONG about everything I’ve known. I simply shrugged and said, “I just don’t know anymore lol”. They explained it as God is the Father, Jesus is God’s son made Man, and the Holy Spirit is the gift God gave to his children. The Holy Spirit is LOVE. The drawing of 2 individuals to live as 1 and the Church must continue the love of Christ on earth and mirror the love of the Trinity. Now things are starting to make some sense.

By this all men will know that you are
My disciples, if you have love for one another.

John 13:35

Then “The Scandal” came up. We know what that is about and we know it’s not a representation of the Church. Jesus KNEW that those who would represent him were subject to failure (human condition). Take Peter for instance; he denied Jesus THREE times! Though, after His resurrection, He gave Peter a threefold commission to care for his flock (John 21:15-18). I referred to what was going on as a malice. As each part of the malice is chipped away the Church will be STRONGER, brighter and more beautiful than it EVER was! For what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger -Friedrich Nietzsche.

Be of sober spirit, be on the alert.
Your adversary, the devil, prowls
around like a roaring lion,
seeking someone to devour.

But resist him, firm in your faith,
knowing that the same experiences
of suffering are being accomplished
by your brethren who are in the world.

After you have suffered for a
little while, the God of all grace,
who called you to His eternal glory
in Christ, will Himself perfect,
confirm, strengthen and establish you.

1 Peter 5:8-10

Everyone agreed. We see Her getting stronger. Her LOVE is getting stronger. Her message is getting stronger. I mentioned in a previous post that one night when I was praying the Rosary I offered my Decades to Mary and Her Church and I was brought to tears (more like ugly crying) and I felt pain in my heart. True pain that lasted for 3 of the 5 Decades. As a woman, who has been hurt many times emotionally in my short life here on Earth, once I get kicked down and had my ugly cry I gain strength. A LOT of strength. I am a force unstoppable, and that is how I see what is happening in our Church. The Devil will always lie in wait for a weakness, but we are God’s children, we are the Church and we will not let him prevail.

Our “job” as a member of “Christ’s body” is to make sure Christ is physically present to those among whom we live and work. We do that through love, and kindness, and basic humanity. Like 9/11, and all other natural disasters, we all came together to help one another. That is basic humanity. We shouldn’t just be doing that when there’s a crisis, we should be doing it every day. This is something I too struggle with. HOWEVER, when I SEE someone in need, even if it’s simply to get a bag of lettuce off of a top shelf for an elderly lady, I do my basic human duty and help. I give clothes constantly to the Veterans charity at I know there is more, but right now I’m doing what I can do. I listen to his calls to my heart. I mentioned before about the pregnancy crisis center and getting a pull to get involved with something along those lines. That pull is still happening, He keeps putting babies and the need to help them in my heart. I have asked for guidance, but I have yet to get an answer so I will continue to pray.

Overall, and despite my lack of Bible understanding, last night’s class was awesome. I learned so much and it made my fire grow bigger for God and all of the knowledge that surrounds Him.

I learned that I cannot read the Bible LITERALLY. We read Mark 10:46-52 which is the reading for Sunday, October 28, 2018:

As Jesus was leaving Jericho with his disciples and a sizable crowd,
Bartimaeus, a blind man, the son of Timaeus,
sat by the roadside begging.
On hearing that it was Jesus of Nazareth,
he began to cry out and say,
“Jesus, son of David, have pity on me.”
And many rebuked him, telling him to be silent. 
But he kept calling out all the more,
“Son of David, have pity on me.”
Jesus stopped and said, “Call him.”
So they called the blind man, saying to him,
“Take courage; get up, Jesus is calling you.”
He threw aside his cloak, sprang up, and came to Jesus. 
Jesus said to him in reply, “What do you want me to do for you?” 
The blind man replied to him, “Master, I want to see.” 
Jesus told him, “Go your way; your faith has saved you.” 
Immediately he received his sight
and followed him on the way.

Bartimaeus wasn’t BLIND (as in can’t see with his eyesight blind), he was BLIND to the world around him. He was possibly an outcast, someone that has strayed *head explodes once again*. I’ve been reading the bible literally. When someone is a leper I’m thinking sores and illness… Some might be, but not all! See why I’m clueless!?

This is going to be interesting! hahahhahah! But I digress.

Our assignment for our next meeting is, “What distracts us from Christ?”

This should be easy enough lol, but I sure look forward to seeing if I’m even remotely close!!

So please tell me! Has anything I said resonated with you? Do you have any story similar or one that you can relate to mine?! I would love to hear it! Please tell me in the comments below!

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